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Love Long Distance.


This afternoon, Aurelien left for the airport to head back to France a week before my return. This is the last time we're saying goodbye under these long distance circumstances. Thank God because I'm over it. And even though I know it's the last time, and I do have a million things to do before going back to Europe, like every other time we say goodbye at an airport or a train station, I'm sad. 

On this cool and gloomy day, we walked down to the old train station by my mom's house that would connect him to JFK's Air Train. As the diesel train shuffled in while we were saying goodbye, I snuck in one last smooch before he escorted himself onto the train - luggage in tow. As my eyes welled up with tears, the conductor, who was looking out through the window of his control room, reopened the train doors. I looked at Aurelien who was still standing in the foyer of the train car, then at the conductor who said, "Go on, you guys need one more, he looks like he's got a long trip ahead of him," Ain't that the truth. Aurelien is flying to Madrid with an eight-hour layover before his connection to Paris and will be traveling for almost 24 hours. I followed the conductor's instructions and gave Aurelien one last goodbye and wished him a bon voyage.

Before the train rolled out of the station, I quickly walked over to the conductor's window to thank him for giving me my total Gary Marshall RomCom moment that broke me out of my dramatic melancholy and the infinite sadness double album moment. "I miss those days," he said while looking off into the distance, "my wife passed away three years ago and I'd give anything to give her that one last kiss."

That really put things into perspective, suddenly making our one week apart futile in comparison to his three years of mourning.

Walking back from the train station, I could feel the first hints of autumn starting to creep in. Unlike Paris where I've heard it's scorching hot, summer in New York is starting its first stages of fizzling out. With each passing day, la rentrée - a time in France when everyone is back from vacation, school starts, businesses reopen, and life goes back to normal - is becoming more and more a part of my reality. Life and the real world is starting creep back in. Ca y est!

I spent the rest of the afternoon cuddled up on my mom's couch eating baked chips, and watching Bride Wars and Made of Honor on Lifetime: television for me. I hope you all enjoyed your weekends and for my lovelies in Paris, I hope you're staying cool! I'm looking forward to getting back home...

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  1. Oh I remember those sad goodbye days! They were the worst, life seemed like one big sad countdown. Only one more week to go! :)

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    1. Yes! One more week to go and this part is over! Phew.

      I remember reading one of your posts where you talked about the long distance period of your relationship with Gregory, and how difficult it was. I guess this just comes with the territory when you're involved in an international relationship. All of us gals have gone through this in one form or another. I'm glad I'm not alone!

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  2. Haha, that is really funny - we were holed up inside yesterday trying to beat the heat and watching Bride Wars & Made of Honor on Lifetime too.

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    1. Oh yeah! You get American tv, don't you? I remember K mentioning that on one of our many commutes home from HTHell!
      What's funny is that those two movies were on at the time, same channel a year ago, and a year ago I watched them then too!

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  3. Aww! That's so sweet of the conductor! And I'm sure the week will go by quickly for you!

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    1. It was the cutest thing that has ever happened on the Long Island Railroad!! The week is already starting to slip by!

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  4. That's really sweet of the conductor. At least he's not bitter about his loss

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    1. No, he had really kind eyes. What was sad was that he didn't look that much older than me. It's a shame that he lost his wife so young...I hope I cross paths with him again.

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  5. So sweet:)

    I'm glad you're going back to Paris! And how perfect that you're gonna be there in time for "la rentree"! My fave time of the year:)

    As for moi, looks like I can brace myself for a decidedly wet holiday in Jamaica thanks to an imminent tropical storm... Wonder what game the Universe is playing on me this time. If that's an incentive to study, well I could stay home and do it for free... Oh well. To be cont.

    Duchesse xox

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    1. Hi Duchess!!!

      I'm so happy that you're on vacation! Don't work too hard! Please!: ) You have bad vacation luck! It was pouring in Paris when you were there in April and now a storm is sweeping through Jamaica (or as I call it Ja-may-may). Well I'm sure there is plenty of indoor activities you and the hubby can do. ; )

      Enjoy your down time and hopefully the sun will peek out for a beach side cocktail.

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  6. Love is alive and well in NY. The conductor certainly paid a beautiful tribute to the memory of his wife by telling Seb and you to have one more parting kiss.

    Good luck finishing up everything that you need to do before you head back to Seb and Paris. If you arrive on the morning of August 26, we may bump into each other at CDG, bleary eyes and all.

    And on an offbeat note because my mind works in mysterious ways, I can't hear the words "my lovelies" without thinking of the Wicked Witch in the Wizard of Oz!

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    1. Yes it is! Love is very much alive and well here!

      So you're back in Paris now, I hope you had a nice flight and aren't too groggy. That flight can be a bitch. Me, I have a few more days to go which I'm grateful for because of the amount of stuff I have to do!

      I never say lovelies in real life, I think I was looking for an alternative to ladies, guys, y'all. So lovelies it was! Sorry to bring up Wicked Witch flashbacks!! : P

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  7. Sooo, I totally teared up... What a sweet man! Definitely puts life and relationships in perspective and a good reminder to never take anything for granted.

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    1. Wasn't that sweet/sad/heartbreaking/unexpected? Definitely a reminder to enjoy every moment with the ones you love.

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